Change

A concept we can’t understand

Yet integrated into our lives

A statue unmovable

Until the smallest hammer

Breaks

Shatters it apart

 

Change something i have never been good with

A

heartbreak

of

goodbyes

Constantly feeling i care more than they do

Leaving something

Someone

Someplace behind

A piece of me

broken

Lost forever

never replaced

Change a sea

A mountain

A universe

Forever coming in

Crashing down

Crushing me

I dramatize everything

I am too much

 

Everything is too much

Change

Often i picture myself stagnant

Stuck in one place

And

I

Freeze

I am as terrified of this

as i am of moving forward

 

But change wraps me in it’s cold embrace

 

Change

Am i scared of it?

Or is it scared of me?

Sometimes i am scared of me

I want to change

Want to be more than i am

More than my circumstances

But i believe

I can never change

 

Change

How can one change when chains pull you down

Down

Deeper

than the ocean floor

Straight to Hade’s den itself

Persephone smiles at you

Hand outstretched

Berries shining

 

Change

Sometimes

In the light of the morning

Rays of the sun

dancing across my skin

Kissing me awake

I fool myself into believing

Change is a good thing

That change can bring a renewing of

Mind

Body

Spirit

 

Change

Everyday we change

The world moving with our without us

Accepting

Rejecting

It’s all irrelevant

Because when the small hammer hits the statue

The mountain

Is coming down

Whether we are ready or not

 

Change

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Non-traditional graduation from The University of Alabama. Thank you Covid-19.

 

 

 

Class, Work, and Fellowships all from Home.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Zoom into Social Distancing

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Goodbye Sweet Home Alabama

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Online Ceremony for SLIS #PompAndCircumstance

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

  Cataratas

 

  Pulhapanzak

Waterfall

 

Mud covers my shoes

while droplets of water create a coat

across my skin

the scent of orchids filling my nose

as i inch closer to the monstrous waterfall

like approaching both an old friend

and a powerful adversary

 

i slip, move back, begin again

down the rocks

cold to the touch

water shoes squeak

then slide

hands clasping hands

i regain my balance

wet clothes sticking to skin

colors made brighter in the sun

shining through the water,

a rainbow across the rocks

 

Climbing up now

the rough stone biting flesh

piercing skin

goosebumps spreading

up and

down my arms

air is scare

eyes blinded by a fine mist

the ringing in my ears 

matched only by the sound

of water violently hitting rocks

beating them further down

into the riverbed

rising to the surface

legs hitting against rocks

feet looking for support

and finding none,

i slip again

 

i jump

frigid water pulls me under

and i’m surrounded by bubbles

like a butterfly in its cocoon

water filling mouth

teeth chattering

i kick up

 

but the strong hands

of a stranger reach out

grabbing onto me

pulling me back to safety

“Climb,” the guide says

So, i do